The year 2007 is an important year for me. This is a good time to reflect on the past and to look forward to the future, however long or short this may be, for evening is falling.

During my 40 years in the Institute, I have never forgotten the advice I found in a spiritual magazine when I was a novice: like Jesus, when we have built up a place, we move on whenever we are asked; no matter how much we are needed there or appreciated by the people. I have tried to live by this advice and I must say it has been a rewarding experience. I came to meet new and different people that greatly inspired me: people like Sr Joanna from whom I learned to overlook a lot of small unpleasantness when dealing with children and young people, and Dr Elizabeth who inspired me with her kindness, patience, love and compassion towards the sick.
Missioned to different places in different capacities, I discovered talents I otherwise might never have become aware of.

Photo: Sr. Mary DeCruz, fmm – Pakistan

For instance, when I was in Renala Khurd, I was able with the help of some Muslim neighbours and our Muslim driver who drove me to the High Court in Multan nearly every week, to get back our land that the Government had taken over as access property. Or when in Hyderabad, I was able, with the help of the Muslim girls of our boarding and their parents, to start a letter-writing campaign in the local papers in favour of a young Christian girl who was being condemned to death because of alleged adultery. Of quite a different nature was my experience in our hospital in Faisalabad with patients having the "Cancer Syndrome" who go through phases of blaming, denying, accepting, and surrendering. They have helped me to understand others and to listen beyond words and actions to what they are unable to say.

All these varied experiences have made me rather versatile. I have been involved in spiritual direction and giving retreats, catechesis of children and adults and preparing boys and girls for confirmation. I cherish a card with all their signatures. Besides being in charge of various works: convents, boardings, and serving as coordinator in our hospital, I was also involved in issues of peace and justice. In all this, I made it a point to train and prepare sisters or lay people so that the continuity of the work might be safeguarded. Through these varied works I have come in touch with people of all walks of life, different social and physical conditions, and of different faiths: Muslims, Hindus, Christians. The many enriching experiences have formed me and contributed greatly to my personal and spiritual development. Now that I have finished my fulfilling and enjoyable mandate of seven years in our hospital in Faisalabad and been posted in our community in Karachi, I feel the time has come to share these experiences with the two young sisters doing their Bachelor of Education (B. Ed.) and with the five aspirants living in our community, beside serving the community in whatever way I can. At present I am the local bursar. I try to be available and kind to the sisters, just and fair to our workers, and deal with the bank employees with a chat and a smile. Thus I became good friends with the floor manager of the bank, a Muslim lady, who shares her personal life with me. I spend a considerable amount of time with our B. Ed students who are being trained for the missions. Once a week I have a session with the five aspirants on Franciscan spirituality.

Photos: Youth Ministry, St. Lawrence's Parish, Karachi

My days are well filled and I really enjoy the things I am still able to do. That I can do this fills me with a deep sense of gratitude toward all – family, sisters, friends and so many others, in and through whom I have experienced and still experience the loving presence of God in my life. It started at home where, after the sudden early death of my father, my mother raised the six of us in a profoundly religious atmosphere. And it continued in the years of my religious formation where a solid foundation was laid for my future mission as an FMM. I continue feeling touched and healed again and again by God's love which streams into my life through so many people in so many different ways. It is this divine presence that sustains and encourages me to carry out my activities, bringing God's loving presence to the people I meet.

 Mary DeCruz, fmm  -  Pakistan


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